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DBM Status Update (Updated Dec 13th, 19)

Posted: Sun Sep 16, 2018 3:22 am
by MysticalOS
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For health and stress reasons, as well as just having a plain crappy PC, I will be stepping down from the Mythic raiding scene in WoW. I have been raiding in wow since Burning Crusade and been making mods for DBM since Wrath (almost entirely by myself mind you).

In Mists I was able to switch to doing it full time and greatly improve the quality and feature of mods as well as pace that mods are released for content. Even now, as I write this, DBM has exceptional mods ready to go for mythic+ dungeons and mythic Uldir up through 8/8, with mythrax and ghuun having as best support possible with limited pull data and datamining available. I continue to monitor progression race and scrap through WCL data as it becomes available to update these mods and better support for final 3 will follow as these bosses are downed and data/information for them becomes public. Despite me stepping back from raiding, I do not expect this to change!. After all, Guild I'm in now is only 2/8 (and I was even sat for both of them), doesn't stop me from watching streams, gathering feedback, looking at other peoples logs and producing great mods. Don't take this post as "oh no, DBM is dead". DBM is very much alive!

However, I'm going to be real here. I don't just work on DBM full time. It's all I do period. I have no life, no friends, no time to really do anything else at all. It's not just coding mods here or getting to play the game for money. It's not as peaches as it sounds. It's committing to every ptr/beta even when I have a raid character to maintain on live and raids to go to later that night. It's grinding dungeons, artifact power, world quests, gathering mats, leveling blacksmithing so I can craft even more raid gear, etc. Many hours, EVERY DAY. If there is no ptr/beta, there is always something to catch up on or do. Even then, sometimes something has to give. PVP mods got axed for recently. It's not even just the code refactoring that 8.0 would need (although that's huge reason), it's "where the hell am I going to find time to spam run BGs to make sure these things even work?".

In addition, I'm still a caretaker for another human being too. My 70 year old disabled mother needs my help a lot too. I have to step away from computer a lot to help her do something she can't do on own. Do errands or do chores. In fact, since bfa has launched I've been so buried that my grass is now over 2 feet tall. :\

I'll be honest, I've become so overwhelmingly stressed with it all, that I'm not even able to enjoy raiding anymore. I miss when I used to enjoy actual progression and getting things down, but I haven't in while now. All this grinding, never getting a chance to slow down and breath a little. It's extremely stressful and mentally breaks me down, because it's twice as bad for me. I do all these things for many hours every single day almost 7 days a week, then turn around and have to go through logs of it to make mods or hop into a PTR/beta and do even more of it. What I wouldn't give to just have more hours in day or ability to clone myself so there was enough me to go around to actually do all this and still have real me time to catch breath.

You cannot understand the amount of hours and commitment, all while barely making 1300 (most months)-1450(early expansion) a month. I've wished since I launched Patreon that I'd hit higher goals and be able to bring on help. Expand so I didn't have to do this all alone. Sadly, that just never happened. I absolutely hate asking/begging for money. I always feel I've got to prove to community that I deserve more for the quality of work and effort put in and not beg for charity, which is why up until now I haven't really written this post. Instead, whenever I had a poor month, I only pushed myself harder to try and earn more money. I'd also pay for trips to blizzcon I clearly couldn't afford to try and humanize the person behind the work with some facetime/networking. However, I've been killing myself for almost 2 years now with almost no help. In a game that's only gotten more and more grindy and a content release pace that's only gotten faster and faster, all while amassing CC debt and even refinancing house just to pay annual taxes and living expenses.

My PC sucks because I can't afford to upgrade it and even that's begun to impact raid performance and ability to maintain my mythic raider status.

I have health issues because I can't afford medical insurance or to have dental surgery I need. I take fish antibiotics to manage an abscess tooth I've had since legion pre expansion event. Unfortunately, as my body has gotten more resistant to antibiotics, the infection has spread to 2 other teeth and even begun to spread to parts of my jaw now and if I don't have it treated soon, it could escalate into a blood infection. I've delayed it as long as I could with self medicating to try and save up money to get treatment.

Between both of the above, I'm not even performing well in raids anymore. I've become a liability to my team and am starting to get sat. That's what made me finally realize I need to slow down and try to get myself sorted out. I need to step back from raiding and force myself to take time off to get that dental surgery whether I can afford it or not. Then, once I recover, maybe think about trying to somehow come up with funds to get a PC that doesn't raid at 17fps on Ghuun. After all that, then consider returning to raiding when I can focus and perform at a level that's acceptable to a mythic raiding team.

Again, I don't want either of above to sound like I'm asking for anything. This isn't a huge plea for money either, I still hate asking. Merely trying to explain the stresses that have been upon me for a while now and brought me so low some days and made me doubt my work and myself and consider giving up. Any time I'd think about that though, I'd realize I can't do that for two reasons. I'm not comfortable spending 8-12 hours a day working in field and no one watching over mother, which in the last 2 years alone has had two heart attack scares. I need to be at home. Second reason I can't give up is that I just love working on DBM too much and I firmly believe that as long as there is a WoW, there should be a DBM.

So onto part some of you have been waiting for, what this means for DBM as a mod? This means I'll be doing less of the mythic mod testing, hands on, myself. I'll need more help than ever in spotting bugs, or feature requests. I still do tons and tons of research and stream watching and communicating with raiders needs, but it's still not the same as pulling boss myself and going "oh x will help with this" or "I could have done better at this if DBM had this". So as a community, I ask that you help with that kind of stuff. No request is a dumb request. If you think something is broken or not good enough, tell me. Even if you don't think it's a bug but is annoying, report it. if you're addon savvy enough, run transcriptor and share transcriptor logs with me. Many ways you can help. Between that and how powerful WCL is and how many twitch streams there are, I have no doubt DBM will still continue to be as amazing as it is now and you should see little difference going forward. Might even see improvement with my focus renewed and stress reduced.

I will still be heavily involved in PTR/Beta testing and hopefully kind people will still let me be part of their testing group even if I can't link mythic achievements anymore. Test raid scaling FTW. My mods for ptr/beta will still be king and I'll definitely ensure day 1 mods are still pretty decent (as decent as beta/ptr testing allows). As for live, who knows, maybe you'll still see me in your normal or heroic raid pug testing something in a group that doesn't require my neck to be azerite level x and ilvl over 9000. I may not be a mythic raider anymore but I shall still be around.

So the TL/DR of it all:

I absolutely love working on DBM and that hasn't changed. Analyzing data and figuring out how things work and coding has never gotten dull to me. I want that much to be clear, those are parts I will always love, that and you guys as a community and helping you guys in discord and seeing your passion for my work. This is just about the other stuff that eats away all my time and sanity and drains me to almost nothing.

So why am I stepping down from raiding then? So I can focus on my health for a minute and try to recharge my sanity and lower my stress. So I can renew my passion for world of warcraft. So I can cut my damn grass. So I can maybe do some side oddball work in those regained raid hours for extra income to actually work on getting a better PC and afford proper medical treatments. I'm just one man doing too much for too little and have to make changes.

What's this mean for DBM? Best case, mods actually improve with my focus up and stress down. Worst case, more initial bugs. You might have to report more things to me that I might miss early on in new content tier.

Re: DBM Status Update

Posted: Sun Sep 16, 2018 3:28 am
by MysticalOS
Don't worry, work still continues on finishing the mythic 8.0.9 update, and MANY future updates for Uldir, and whatever raid comes in 8.1. I don't need to be a mythic raider to solve the mysteries of how stuff works :D

Re: DBM Status Update

Posted: Sun Sep 16, 2018 6:34 pm
by MysticalOS
I'm overwhelmed by the amount of support. I honestly didn't expect that post to explode. I figured I'd cut back raiding, use that free time to sort through some life stuff and maybe pick up some side work for a few extra bucks to work on health and computer issues.
You guys are fantastic and I thank you whole heartedly. I'm literally calling the dentist first thing monday to setup surgery (my beard though, qq, but it'll grow back

Posting these for reference ... ds_by_its/ ... e_a_today/ ... ached_his/

Re: DBM Status Update

Posted: Sun Sep 16, 2018 11:53 pm
by Kylista
You have always been, and always will be one of the unsung heroes of World of Warcraft. The overwhelming positive effect you have had on millions of players, from the most casual and family oriented players, to the most hardcore world first contenders. Still to this day, you are one of the most receptive, reachable mod creators out there, able to turn around and code out requests with an insanely fast turnaround. Mod or Addon I feel is not a strong enough word to convey how integral your creation has become over the years.

On behalf of the entire worldwide WoW community, I wish you the best of luck. Thank you so much for everything you have done for us all.

Re: DBM Status Update

Posted: Mon Sep 17, 2018 12:39 am
by MysticalOS
I just want to add, anyone that thinks my post is a fake plea to just sit on a pile of money.

1. I wasn't even expecting this post to explode. I actually tried to keep it low key cause I was worried I'd LOSE subs for it and "sky is falling, drop support" posts instead. But apparently I COMPLETELY misjudged community.
2. Everything I said was 100% true, and am more than happy to post proof/papers of any work I do thanks to all of you to improve my health, or my computer.
3. Anything extra that's left over, isn't going to be used to stuff my mattress with money so I can sleep on piles of money. I legit have plans to bring on additional help and do bigger things with DBM. It was ALWAYS my hope that if dbm got more support that I'd bring on more dev support. If there is STILL money left over, I'm constantly looking for ways to give back and will play it forward in supporting others or doing give aways or something.

Re: DBM Status Update

Posted: Mon Sep 17, 2018 1:41 am
by MysticalOS
PS, a reminder, don't post this in game. I don't want myself or any of you getting in trouble with blizzard. No soliciting or advertising in game. Fansites, social media, etc is fine, but keep in game channels clear of requests for support. This can be seen as violation of blizzard solicitation policy. Same for official blizzard forums.

Re: DBM Status Update (Updated Nov 6, 18)

Posted: Sat Nov 03, 2018 1:44 am
by MysticalOS
I've been posting regular updates in discord, but since not everyone reads that and I've had a few PMs lately asking how I'm doing, health wise, financial wise, stress wise, I owed an update here as well.

I did have dental surgery Oct 5th. I ended up needing a lot more teeth pulled than initially planned, but jaw was fine, luckily. Do to amount of teeth that needed pulling though, do to lots of infection, I need follow up work to get replacement teeth once I'm healed enough.

Next appointment to discuss my options for that is actually November 6th where I'll go over latest CT results of jaw and discuss options such as implants to help retain jaw mass and better quality of life with the replacement teeth that I will need.
Had that appointment, had 5 bone spurs that needed some gum lancing and drilling down. Boy is that painful, worse than the original extractions since I don't have strong numbing agent this time that lasts 3 days. That has to heal and I go back again in 3 weeks. I also don't have as much bone for the implants that the dentist would like. The First surgeon removed a bit too much bone (even though he knew I needed implants) and then didn't properly fill the sockets like he should have, according to the implant doctor. Because of this it's going to take additional visits and work and likely bone grafting before I can proceed to implants. However, I'm still in need of more healing before any additional procedures can take place.
I will update again on next appointment.

Financially, all dental needs so far have been covered thanks to all the paypal donations and new pledges I received. Still can't thank you all enough for that.

In addition, the continued patreon support from a lot of new people helped in replacing lawnmower that broke beyond repair (wasn't made for cutting 2+ foot grass I guess!), an expensive vet bill, and some hurricane roof damage that came up that would have otherwise buried me before. In addition, should help cover the taxes that will follow for all the donations received that I put to use on dental care. All of this thanks to all of you who gave support (and many who continue to give support on patreon). I've never been in a better place than I am right now.
Now, i've run the math on the numbers and based on the rate patreon support is declining (no support lasts forever) patreon will probably be back to where it was, in about 6 months, but that's ok!. I'm a very good financial planner and being very smart with support I have now while I have it. Soon I'll be back in a healthy place with teeth and finally caught up on taxes, and that is a very good feeling. That's more than I could have expected and definitely more than I could ever ask for. Whether larger support continues for 6 years, 6 months, or 6 days, I am thankful for all of it and will put it to best use possible to ensure better care for myself, my mother, and DBM. :)

As for DBM. I'm still not mythic raiding, because it's still too much for me right now, but I have been working hard on PTR to ensure everything is great for raid testing and upcoming content. I'm also still working on live mods with all suggestions and bug reports and even hanging out in random wow twitch streams to catch bugs or gather feedback (even if it's just lurking, unspoken feedback) from people when I see how people use my mods.
I've also been slowly working on resurrecting pvp mods and even some classic WoW mods planning. DBM is stronger than ever, thanks to all of you. With announcements from blizzcon, I certainly have my work cut out for me in coming months and will continue delivering best mods I can in most productive use of my time (I feel I've finally struck that perfect balance of time management that doesn't exhaust/burn me out like I was before when trying to do too much with too little).

I'll post more updates when I have more info from follow up dental appointments and implant surgeries.

Re: DBM Status Update (Updated Dec 2, 18)

Posted: Sun Dec 02, 2018 8:40 pm
by MysticalOS
Had an appointment Nov 28th for sizing of temp dentures and filing of 4 more bone spurs. Next appointment is Dec 11th for more sizing and filing of bone spurs. My healing has been pretty bumpy (literally, bone keeps helping bumpy and with spurs and needing constant fixing).

Still on wait and see on final healing for proceeding to possible implant options, but Surgeon is thinking sometime in January or February will be a clearer picture of next steps. The meantime is just trying to manage the healing of extractions still and trying to get temp dentures sized up in a mouth full of awkward healing.

DBM update is that things are still going smoothly for next raid content. Still actively engaging all PTR testing and making quality mods not only after testing but BEFORE testing so people doing the testing itself can see what DBM can really do even when it doesn't have fight data yet.

Financially, still looking good. The declines in support around holidays, reduced interest in wow, and fact most of you only intended to support short term were all planned for. Today, DBM finally dropped below the stretch goal I created that was above my needs, and I'm grateful it stayed above that goal for as long as it did. Now, I'll begin to see a clearer picture of where I'll be months from now when support going forward hopefully starts leveling off and seeing where I land in the long term.

I'll continue posting these updates as I update DBM, or update status on my health.

Re: DBM Status Update (Updated Dec 20, 18)

Posted: Thu Dec 20, 2018 11:21 pm
by MysticalOS
Just A Small update. I did have an Appointment on Dec 12th and then even had to go back on 14th for follow up. These appointments were pretty uninteresting though and mostly just "yep, you're still healing up, but here is some stuff to try and progress it faster".

I'm basically rinsing my mouth with a concoction of hydrogen peroxide, water, and some medicine all mixed together to try and toughen gums up a bit and heal some sores where I've had to have bone spurs drilled down multiple times.

At this point I don't know when next appointment is until after holidays. then they will be calling me to set something up (or I'll call them if they forget). In meanwhile, I'm rinsing with stuff that makes me want to gag and leaves a horrible after taste in mouth. :)

As far as DBM, I did do a small update post 8.1 to fix up the world boss mod for darkshore and add some user feature requests. This is sort of the calm before storm since blizzard is also on PTR/dev holiday until January. Then it's busy busy time again because not only will the 8.1 raid come out, but the 8.1.5 ptr will likely go into testing, including the Stormsong raid which hasn't had PTR testing yet, will no doubt follow in 8.1.5 PTR testing. I will try to get some of the stormsong raid modules ready before the new year though so that it's less to do at once later. Then probably continue work on adding support for more classic dungeons. For those that didn't notice, 3 new dungeons got mods in the BC/Vanilla mod update last week. With the increase in number of alts being leveled (do to allied races and prestige) as well as dungeons that stay relevant longer, it's been in my agenda to put more time into revitalizing mods for old content. In coming weeks/months, when time allows, I'll continue to do these updates to older dungeons.

Re: DBM Status Update (Updated Jan 20, 19)

Posted: Sun Jan 20, 2019 10:54 pm
by MysticalOS
Still eating soft foods. It's because it's been a roller coaster just getting the temp dentures and a rough healing with tons of follow up visits to file down bone spurs.

Finally got dentures last week, but they have major problems. overbite, wrong fit, require way too much glue to hold in. basically an unusable fit.

It'll sort itself out though. It's just a much worse process than I anticipated. Much of it stemming from rushing and seeing wrong doctor first and now having to a lot of extra steps because the prosthetic doctor wasn't able to model anything off my real teeth and has had to build them from scratch in a mouth that's a mess and still healing.

I need a follow up appointment to give denture feedback, but the only opening they had this coming week was Tuesday morning. I can't do that since it's day new raid opens and I need to be on top of it all day as soon as realms come up, so the next follow up will probably be week after next. When i finally get back in there, I get to complain about dentures and go from there.

It's all still very wait and see, while me and doc try to get the dentures fixed up first and what new CT scans show for my healing update. I may end up needing bone grafting too, to repair bone from extractions (also something that is extra and could have been avoided if I had just seen specialist first, he would have taken more care in bone preservation in extractions as well as done minor grafting while he was in there. so again, most of this is just my fault being impulsive and scheduling removals from first available surgeon back in October).

Biggest take away so far, if you ever need a LOT of teeth extracted and will need some kind of false teeth afterwards, go straight to the doctor that will be doing the false teeth first so that he can get accurate measurements of your bite, your midline, etc. if you don't and get extractions first, it REALLY bites you in the ass.

As for implants and something better than these dentures long term, that all depends on how things go in coming weeks and months. With taxes, with patreon, with my CT scans, etc.